Shameless Games

I have expensive tastes. When we go out, I prefer the motorcycle to the car. I also prefer the gourmet bistro for dinner, and expensive French macarons for dessert. Especially with food and drinks like coffee or tea… I will buy the best and serve it to myself exactly as I like it. No compromises. […]

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One of my biggest lessons these days has been consequences. There are consequences to failure. At first, it felt like the more spectacular the failure, the greater the consequences. But then I laughed. The size of the consequence is defined by me. In regards to my latest failures… While it would be unwise to completely […]

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Recently, I was accused of courting approval out of some psychological dysfunction in relation to not having approval when I was a child. It was linked on a recent post I made in regards to my father and this someone pounced on it saying the only reason I am seeking this (impossible) path that I’m […]

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Sith Yantra

As I took up studying Kali Ma, I discovered Yantras. Yantra is a mystical diagram, mainly from the Tantric traditions of the Indian religions. They are used for the worship of deities in temples or at home; as an aid in meditation; used for the benefits given by their supposed occult powers based on Hindu […]

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Rejection/recognition/approval is the issue I have been accused of having. I don’t deny it, but the problem is that killing this monster is something that must be done in private. It’s killed by accepting my outsider position and finding a form of comfort in it knowing that I am the person I wish to be. […]

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The Sith

A long time ago… in a galaxy far far away… there came people who wanted to take the concept of the Force and adapt it to New Age studies. They became known as Force Realist communities and they relied heavily on terminology based off of the Star Wars franchise. They began defining the Force, the […]

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Exploring the Beginning

I had a long weekend in my own void. In between every word and action, I was wondering what to do with myself. What do I do with these short comings and flaws; how can I dump the baggage. Then I came upon the notion that there is no dumping of the baggage. I accept […]

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I once called darkness the shroud I willfully pulled around myself to block out the disturbances that would seek to distract me from my goals. That only by invoking such brutal night, could I focus on my singular fiery passion and turn into a consuming flame.

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